yo
ugh. thats my feelings. everyone else is doing an awesome job in comp, the cast and crew, the costumes look awesome and the set is too. but then...theres me. the kid who knows he sucks but still continues to act and make the shows he's in suck. i have such an easy charecter but can i do it? no. why cant i do it. and of course its the last scene meaning it needs to be the best but im frikin ruining it. i cant be obnoxious and snooty and pompous. anyone would kill for such an easy role but can i do it? no of course not. moving on from my crappy charecter...
my crappy accent. ask anyone, whats an easy accent to do...you would say british...but can i do it? hell no! i listen to the accent tape doug gave me but can i do it? of course not, because i was dealt the lucky hand of having a birth defect in my mouth and thanks to it i cant talk normally or do anything involving speech correctly. thanks alot genetics. seroiusly, the things i love to do most are singing and acting, and of course those require good diction an annunciation but can i do it? NO. cant move my soft pallet, cant say my "r"'s. cant do anything right involving speech...after 5 years of speech therapy u think i could but i cant. cuz im a failure at the just like everything else i try. i dont even know why i act anymore. im the worst one on the stage for comp, but everyone else is too nice to say it. im making everyone else worse. ugh...
well im done bitching