wicked pissed off post

all beware, this will not be pretty.

WHAT THE FUCKING HELL. THREE YEARS I HAVE WORKED MY ASS OFF AND WHAT DO I GET?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!!? LIKE 5 FUCKING LINES. does my hard work mean nothing to him? seriously wtf. during comp last year i worked my ass off...I ACTAULLY LOST AT LEAST AN HOUR SLEEP A NIGHT TRYING TO PERFECT MY CHARECTER, but does that mean anything? no of course not. sure i won ensemble last year, but thats ensemble....i want to be noticed for one instead of just blending in well. if i had the oppurtunity to show off what i could do i know id do awesome but no, i never will get that chance. WTF. i wish doug could see this post and see how frustrated i am. its like im trapped, i cant do more, and i hafta do with what he gives me but even if i do it really well i dont move. i just want a good part, not the lead, just a good part where i can actaully DEVELOP A CHARECTER. UGH. WHY CANT I JUST GET A CHANCE!!! WHAT THE HELL....im done ranting