Rant Entry

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Lately, I've been doing nothing but getting sick of this whole highschool attitude. Respect for yourself is a great and important thing. The balancing point is, "Where does respect for yourself translate into disrespect for someone else?" My problem is that everyone seems so absorbed in themselves. If the aforementioned person did not want to hear what I was saying, there was a more polite way to say it than that. Whether or not they are aware of it, them saying that hurt a lot. But I wonder if that person really cares? Do people EVER look outside their own little world to see what their actions do to anyone else? There is a cause and effect on everything you do, why don't people ever think that there is consequences for their actions? If everyone was just a little more considerate, the world could be a lot better place.

This message is going out to a very small crowd, but I felt the need to say it here. If this message is for you, you'll know it. If it's not, you'll know it. If you don't know, then just ask me. The point I'm trying to get to is that I'm done with this whole political social world that's been built. When I say I'm done with it, I mean I'm leaving it. I'll still talk to those of you for who this is aimed it, but in no way will I be involved with any of the angsty teenage drama that seems to hover around when we speak. When I talk to a select few of you, all that it does is leave me angry or sad, I'm not doing that to myself. If you need me, than I will be here for you, but I'm sick of hurting because of other people's insensitiveness to me.

I realize that there is an air of hypocrisy to what I am saying; this can be seen as a very selfish and self- absorbed action, but by not doing, I am only hurting myself. I am no longer ashamed to admit that I go to a physchologist, and that it seems whenever I go back to him, I am discussing unimportant teenage emotions, instead of other things that I really need to focus on. Once again, it is unfair to myself to do this.

I'm not saying that I want nothing to do with any of my friends anymore, because I do. Most of you need not even read this, because it isn't aimed at you. If we are all going to hang out, than I'd love to be there, but I refuse to get involved in anything that will make me not happy. If the people that I'm speaking to would like to discuss this, than they are more than welcome to. That's about it.

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